Have you ever experienced the epiphany of sin's reach? Its that fatal detonation of a massive conviction that your goodness is nothing but a perverted facade of the reality God sees plainly by His eyes of Holy justice. When He can't bare to look upon your "goodness" because He knows that His holiness would consume your counterfeit character in an instant.
Its that moment where your motives to pray are pure enough to ask God to reveal what has remained hidden deep within; the startling impression that all your good intentions are brought into questioned because of the inconsistencies and dis-connectivity of your actions. Its that moment where suddenly words fail you and your expressions of confession become crippled with an interminable fear; a clash between flesh and spirit where evil bubbles and boils over the surface of your life you believed was once forgiven and forgotten.
Its the paradox of comfort and terror in the blink of an eye - the moment where truth and fallacy are the blades that scream against one another on the battlefield of judgement. When all you have are tears for words and that disturbing tremor as you catch the glimpse of standing before the Holy One Whose name is eternally unknown and is infinitely greater than all of creation and beyond. It is that moment where soul-stricken sorrow is your only refuge and the path of deliverance comes to the place where you understand you are nothing and He is your everything - stammering the one word of plea your soul can manifest in an audible tongue... "mercy"
When the words fail you and your soul has finally managed to find the greatest mortal effort of repentance - let your heart speak and your mouth be kept silent before the LORD of Hosts - for He already knows. Be still... and know He is God!
